I have fallen in love with eight guys over the course of my 23 year old life. And, I have had a sexual relationship with none.
I got a cuddle once.
Also, I remember I got to kiss one, until he told me my ass reminded him of “Funmi’s” ass.
And another who pressed his lips against mine while pretending to be asleep. When I opened my lips to welcome him, he french kissed me – while “sleeping”. We spoke nothing of it in the mornings. But, it always happened when we shared a bed. Would be years later we would laugh over it.
I guess, this is what I get for living in Nigeria in the early years of the 21st century. I’m not allowed to love. Better still, I am allowed to love, but I mustn’t talk about or act on the kind of love I feel.
The last one was nice. He told me he cared for me, but couldn’t love me in that way.
A central theme from all these experiences with my love interests is I got to share a real romantic relationship with none. It wasn’t because all of them happened to be straight – no straight man would repeatedly kiss another man in secret. It was because I am a man. We didn’t understand such a phenomenon of being in a relationship with another man.
All we were taught was that such feelings were reserved to be shared with the opposite sex. When the feelings sufficed for our same sex brethrens, it was troubling. We muffled it the best we could.
But, that was no good.
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